I'm a truck driver and do this as a contracter.
I have been diagnosed with COPD 6 years ago.
Two and 1/2 years ago I had half my colon removed. The tumor had been bleeding and my hemo count was 6. The tumor had just started to push thru the lining. They checked lymph and other areas and found no signs of cancer. Everyone told me how lucky I was. After a couple of months I went back to driving cross country. The company I contract with changed the medical coverage they offered, and the new coverage was more than all my other bills together, and I lost my insurance. No chemo or radiation.
I switched over to the VA. That was a little over 2 years ago. Last month (dec 19) they did my first ct since I went back to work. They found a thickening where the colon was reconnected, and my CEA is up.
I was told to come off the road and concentrate on following up on this. I did , the VA has set me up for a colonoscope(??) Feb 3rd and they tell me they are going to do a biopsy of the thickening at that time. They are also talking about the possibility of chemo no matter what the results are.
I am 56 and single. I have been in AA since June in '84. I get some support there, but most people are uncomfortable with my condition, and I tend to feel like a whiner when I talk about my middle of the night fears and the dread I feel about living with a return to surgery and all that entails.
There seems to be a fine line between denial and staying positive, I try to do everything the doctors tell me to do and get my affairs in order, then expect the best and get on with my life. I'm not sure how my emphasyma will get along with chemo, and ....