Jan 14, 2003 - 12:13 pm
I posted yesterday under "lymphoma," but no one has replied yet. I guess no one who has the type of lymphoma I have is on this board . . .
I'm just newly diagnosed (Dec. 9, 2002) with non-Hodgkins lymphoma on the conjunctiva of my right eye. My CT-scan didn't show lymphoma anywhere else, and my bone marrow biopsy came back normal, so I feel pretty encouraged about my prognosis. I see my radiation oncologist tomorrow to discuss treatment, and it's my understanding that I'll have radiation (don't yet know for sure how many treatments).
I'm sort of struggling right now with the emotional roller coaster that cancer has put me on. It's like that old song - "Some days are diamond; some days are stone." Most of my days since my diagnosis have been of the "diamond" variety, but yesterday was a honkin' big boulder! I felt really tired, even after a decent night's sleep, everything and everybody got on my nerves BIG TIME, and all I wanted to do was cry whenever I was alone. The crying did help me some, and my husband has been really supportive through all of this.
I haven't taken any time off since I've been diagnosed - just that one day I had to go to the doctor. Fortunately, I was able to schedule most of my tests during the holiday break (a perk of being an educator!). I'm taking off tomorrow to see the doctor, but I'm hoping that my treatments can be scheduled at a time of day where it will fit into my schedule and I won't have to take off an entire day. But yesterday I just really wanted NOT to be at work - to go off somewhere by myself and pull a blanket over my head. I guess that's pretty much normal for a cancer patient? Or is it just me?
Anyway, I'd really appreciate hearing from someone who has "been there" and can offer me some advice/encouragement/whatever.
Thanks, and I hope everyone's day "sparkles" today!!