Jan 13, 2003 - 2:35 pm
I can't believe it, but one month after I found out my mom had cancer and so many of you were there to support me back in Novemeber, I have lost her, she passed on Dec. 6th. She went in for another blood transfusion and she developed shortness of breath and her tumor was bleeding into her lung. She passed before I could make it down to see her. I can honestly say. I have lost my best friend. It feels like I am going be sick every time I get up in the morning. I just dont know how to cope. This is so hard and I feel so alone. How do people get through this. I miss her more than anything. I keep calling her cell phone to hear her voice, I just keep looking at pictures. I think this just has to get easier. My friends are trying to help and no one understands. I can't focus on work, I just keep thinking how much I want her back. I just want people to talk about her so I feel like I am not going to forget about her. Christmas so weird. My brother is married so he went with his wifes family. Im single so I went to see my moms sister and brother and their families. Everyone just would look at me like I was going to lose it. I couldn't wait to go back home. what do I do to help this, please someone give me some guidence.