Oct 14, 2002 - 7:26 pm
I am a 19 yr old male from San Diego Ca. I was diagnosed with Testical Cancer in Feburary of 2002. I knew I had it for about 2 months, But was scared to go to the doctor's. I finally had enough and went to the doctor's in mid Feb. There the urologist told me about me. He sent me for a catscan and told me it was not good. So he set surgery for the day after I went in. It took me about a week to heal up and be able to go back to work. But then he said I will have some rounds of chemo. I go in for the chemo and 4 months later I go for another catscan he said the cancer has spread. So August 26th 2002 I went in for major surgery in LA. It is now Oct 14th and I am cancer free. But now my parents are so hard on me. Forcing me to get a job taking things away from me. They don't know I am still hurting inside. I just don't know what to do anymore or what to feel. Back a few years ago I use to have suicidal urges. I dont feel like killing myself. It just feels like the world would be better without me and put me out of this horriable life I have.