Aug 10, 2002 - 4:10 pm
My husband of 30 years was diagnosed with liver cancer in April. It is very far progressed. He has had a chemo infusion at UCLA & a chemo embolization at University of Penn. He may have another embolization if the first one did him any good.
He is all over the place emotionally. He is paranoid, he flares, he doesn't remember what he says from moment to moment & insists we are refusing to give him what he has asked for or not respected his wishes to be not given things, he is isn't eating or taking meds regularly, he calls our 15 yr.old daughter names & lashes out at her so much that she, understandably & advisedly, hides in her room & then gets told by him that she is abusing him by staying away from him or yelling at him. I am working 12 hr days while our friend & daughter are with him. As soon as I come in, he gets me involved in his fights with everyone wanting me to mediate & rescue him while his sentences make no sense & he is verbally attacking them. He wants to start discussions to settle issues that I can't even follow much less do anything about at 1 or 2 in the morning & keeps waking me up if I try to go to bed. I get 2-3 hours of sleep a day, & I'm about dead.
I can't stop yelling at him. I get sharp with everyone & have started crying with my clients. My daughter is falling apart, & I'm afraid there won't be anything left of her when this is over.
Please, somebody talk to me.