Apr 19, 2002 - 10:04 am
Hi, I'm new and this is my first post. My father is in end stage lung cancer (non small cell squamous) with metastasis to bone. He was diagnosed January 10 of this year. My mother is still living and is in denial. I wondered if anyone has experienced kind of shutting down? I've just learned my friends really aren't when it comes to talking about my dad, so I've basically pushed everyone away. Dad's growing weaker every day and my mom's going to take a vacation. I'm staying with dad for the week and I know mom needs to get away, but I really don't think this is a good time. I'm terrified something will happen while she's gone. So far, they refuse my suggestions for hospice, yet dad wants to stay home. Oh, I'm so sorry I'm rambling. It's just there is so much to say and I've kept quiet for so long. I apologize. I guess I just wondered if anyone out there wants to talk.
Thanks for listening and I'll try to be more coherent next time.