Mar 17, 2002 - 12:42 pm
I went in for a brain,neck MRI and only made it through the brain (30 min). I have lung cancer and cannot lay flat. Pain is not so bad at first but after about 15 min, oh my gosh! They won't let me take a sit up break either. They are doing a chest MRI tomorrow and that can take up to an hour! What do I do? I'm scared sh**less as it is. I am 27 and they are fairly certain it Small cell carcinoma but the biopsy is still being evaluated. I never thought of myself as a wimp but I just couldn't take the pain and the confinement sucked as well. I have a 1\2 cm pulmonary nodule as well as a 2.5 cm tumor in my left lung that has mestastised into a lymph node on my neck. Most likely inoperable. Am very scared. I am trying to cope and put faith in God but I have never been a very religious person and don't know if I even deserve to be saved. Don't know how to pray without sounding so selfish. I wish I could just go somewhere else and pretend to just not have this disease. Please, I know I sound pathetic, but i do have my strong days as well. This, however, is not one of them. Thanks for listening and God Bless and be with us all.