Mar 13, 2002 - 3:27 am
I am so glad to see so many women posting to Sue's question. I have been reading and writing her for over a year now and don't know what I would do without all of you? I am still having problems, feeling worse than ever even though I have had many tests trying to find out what is the matter. Lately I haven't had much energy to much of anything. I am still having much difficulty eating, everything causing me pain. It is hard to believe that I have been struggling with this since October. I have dropped a pile of weight, a concern since it keeps going down. Today I went to pain specialist and can't believe that I barely have enough energy to carry this body of mine around. The next step it seems is to reassess me for any cancer. It seems a little weird to me this is something we are doing now after being sick for this long. I am getting very sick and tired of all these tests. Unlike most women my worry isn't that I have cancer, my worry is that they won't find anything and I will have to suffer the rest of my life. I am alittle concerned that maybe they should of done this first but once again they are the doctors what do I know?? One of these days I know I will be posting a FEEL GOOD message and what patiently for that day. My son is taking his mother home for a family visit. What a change I have to say. He is the one making all the arrangements and even paying his mothers ticket for a flight back home. It still is hard to believe for me since it wasn't that long ago I worried if he would ever find his way, boy has he ever. It is really strange having your son looking out for you when for years it seemed he really didn't give a hoot. I am so fortunate to have seen these days, filled with love from his heart not just from the lip service I became so use to. I look forward to go home with him and spend time with my parents who have had such a bad start to the year. My mother as you know almost died on New Years Eve and my father has just been diagnosed with emphasema and hasn't been well. I am so glad to be returning home with my son, who has surprised us all.