Mar 07, 2002 - 8:06 am
I'm not sure I'm doing this correctly, but I hope my message reaches you. I am one year away from my last treatment (mastectomy, chemo, radiation). Physically, I feel so much better that it's hard for me to believe that I couldn't pick-up and carry an empty trash can from the curb to the garage last year. Mentally, I'm having a hard time. My view of my life/world has been turned completely upside-down or over. I can't seem to embrace my recovery and my good chances of survival. The only people I talk with are family and friends who have not been diagnosed with cancer, and I feel as though I am dragging them down with my fears and thoughts of death.
Am I "stuck" as a cancer patient and need to talk with a therapist, or have you all experienced the same thing? If so, does one get over it or simply have to learn to live with it?
I'm fifty years old, divorced, living in a wonderful little old house, with two dogs, a cat, and soon a retired racehorse (in the barn, not the house), so I really don't have any outside pressure to be/do/behave a certain way, for which I feel very lucky.
Would appreciate some insight, and don't worry about telling me I'm a wuss.