Oct 31, 2001 - 9:20 pm
Well, as many of you know, I've been having a rough time with my husband. Just as I have finally accepted the way things are, my husband is having second thoughts about things. He is getting so jealous of some the things I have been doing, like going out with my friends, which some of them are men and just having fun and moving on. He did go out on a date himself last Sunday and that was really hard on me. I am now into easier treatments and am returning more to the way life used to be, although I know that it can never be the same again. I am going to see my plastic surgeon to discuss my reconstruction which is goingt o start befort he end of the year. He really wants to go with me and I have told him no. I am so confused right now. He wants to go to counseling, but won't guarantee me anything from it. Why does he have to do this to me just as I have started to accept things. I've found a job and am really excited about it, the only problem is that it doesn't have health insurance, which we all know we can't really afford to be without it now! Not sure what to do with everything. Just needed to vent I guess and get some great advice from some great women! I am so scared that he is going to decide to work things out and that just when I think that things are going well again, he'll leave! And the whole date thing with another woman after he has only been gone 2 weeks really bothers me as well! I've gone on long enough! Thank you all for letting me vent and get some of my frustrations out once again! God bless you all!