I'm new to this site. My girlfriend and I bought a house last Oct., had a son in late May, and discovered that she had Hodgkin's, IIB, in early July.
Our house is somewhat distant from "civilization," away in the mtns., so she needs to stay with friends in a nearby town to help take care of her and baby. I miss her dearly and visit as often as I can, but I feel lonely and guilty because I can't work, take care of the baby, and take care of her all at the same time. It just makes me feel so weak.
I barely sleep at night despite the fact that I'm exhausted. I try not to tell anyone how I awful I feel, especially my girlfriend, but it's eating me up inside, which is why I suppose I'm posting this message--just to tell someone.
I guess I just hope that someone can tell me that it's all right that I can't work all day and then take care of an infant and a woman in chemotherapy.
Thanks for listening.