Apr 27, 2001 - 6:11 pm
I am 20 years old.....and for a few months now i have noticed blood in my feces. It has gotten worse...some days none, some days a considerable amount. Now, you think, WELL GO TO THE DOCTORS!...but i am sooo scared. My grandmother just died 2 days before christmas from cancer and I watched her slowly get worse. I counldnt tell my parents that I am dieing, i wouldnt know what to do...i am so upset, I havent told anyone, and its getting so hard. I cant stand to look at my girlfriend, mom, dad or my brother for too long, because the tears start to come to my eyes. I think i am dieing, I can feel it. I am starting to get sick and getting pains all the time now. I just need the courage to go and I am cant seem to get it....can someone please just talk to me. I really need some help, i dont know what to do. Is it worth silently hurting, so I dont hurt the ones i love til the last possible moment? I just dont know, but i feel like I am lost.