Apr 10, 2001 - 10:38 pm
My best friend, Sharon, died on April 22, 2000. I'm having a very difficult time as I was her best friend and caregiver and I am so lonely. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer five years ago. I was her caregiver then and we worked so hard to get well. She got well, her hair grew back, and she went back to teaching little kids which she loved to do very much. But a year ago last June they found the ovarian cancer in her liver. She had been in pain for quite a while before the spots showed up. She began chemo again and I began caregiving again. We were going to beat this again. I just knew it. The first chemo protocol seemed to be working. Her blood tests were good. I kept looking for ways to strengthen her to help her fight this. But just before Christmas, 1999 her CA125 had climbed. They would need to try something else. They tried one and then another. On April 7, 2000 the doctors said there was nothing more they could do. They had taken out all the big guns and that was all they could do. They said she could live for another 4 months. "Through the summer". Fifteen days later, Sharon died. The night before Easter. I feel I failed my best friend because I was sure I could find something to stop the cancer. But I didn't. As the anniversary gets closer, it is getting to hurt more and more. Are there any caregivers out there who can help me through this first anniversary. Sharon and I did so many things together. I was her maid of honor. I have been a second mother to her adopted daughter. We lived only four houses from each other. I was there every day to take care of her and her family. But she is gone and I miss her so much. I wrote a little poem in her memory in the middle of the night and I'd like to share it with anyone reading this.
In Memory of Sharon
An angel came a-calling a year ago today, To pick up my best friend and take her far away.