Woke up early and cant sleep. Proable took too long of a nap yeasterday.
A little about my self:I live in Maine, I am 38, married for 14 years, no children, a dog named Sara which is half Delmation and half Lab. She is more spoiled then most kids...lol (laugh out lound.) She has the head of a Delmation and the rest is all Lab. Great to have around when my husband is working. I mentioned before that my husband worked the grave yard shift, but now he was able to get a 3 to 11 positon and starts next Mon. I cant wait. I hate to be alone at night. When I was first doing Chemo I would get so scard that something would happen and no one would be around. My mom stayed with me the first time I had my first treatment but I was ok so I stayed alone at night for the 2nd one. But when I recived my 3rd I was sick as a dog. Nothing helped me. I ended up in the ER at 11:00 PM of that same night. They had to try about 4 difierent drugs before I would stop vomiting. (Sucks when there is nothing to come up). I was sore for a week. Needless to say my husband did not work that night. I was told that I was to stay in the hospital over night (thank God). I was so dranied. I went home the next afternoon. They just wanted to keep an eye on me and make sure I was ok. The compazine for some reason was not working so I was prescribe a more stronger drug the next time which helped me. I was so thankful when the first 4 treatments were over. Needless to say for the first night of the rest of my treatments I stayed over night at my parents so Tim (my husband) would not worry. The last 4 was Texol and was a releaf from the first 4. The first week after a treatment I was sore all over, there was no joint in my body that did not hurt. It also made me feel like someone was pressing a ton of bricks on my chest. But once the week was over I was back to my old self untill I had to get another treatment. With the Texol it did not make me sick for 3 weeks like the first 4 did. Once the week was over I had 2 weeks left to feel better. I was able to deal with the pain better then being sick everyday. I dont know about anyone else but I started having heartburn like there was no tomorrow!! The Doctor prescribed me Prevacid and had no problem from then on. If you get heartburn do not let it go like I did. I was at the point that I could not eat anything. Just drank Tea. Told my Doctor I needed something to stop it. Was like I had Reflux or something. Much better now. I still take it once in a while. Some foods stil bother me but not as bad as it was.
"HAIR" Its coming back..slowly but it is coming back. I use to complain about it before being too natural curly and doing what it wanted and not what I wanted it to do...well no more cause I have none..lol. But it's starting to come back a centermeater at a time but I can see it. Never know what you have untill it's gone and I do mean gone...lol. I don't know about anyone else but I could not ware the wigs. Itched too much. (Mom hated it when I would wip it off and itch and put it back on). It botherd her way more then me. I went to waring bandaners and a hat. I wished it was in the summer cause it would not of been so cold...burrrr. Never knew the insulation I had from it till it was gone. Long as it's back I will never complain again.
My husband is balding and hates it. An old age thing I guess. When he complains of it I tell him "it could be worse, you could have none at all like me". He does not think I'm funny...lol.
Tim has taking this whole thing well at least he has around me. Maybe because I have been very strong and positive about the whole thing. I have had my moments where I wondered if I should do a will and all that but I am in no rush. Its wired but I have a calming feeling of the whole thing. Thats where God comes in. He's not ready for me yet. I have much more living and learning to do.
I thank God for every day I get and help others along the way. I am doing Radition now. I had 32 to start with and have 16 left to go. There is this older lady (88) and has her treatment right before I do. She seemed so sad one day so I got talking to her and let her tell me all about her and what she is going through. Then she asked about me and I told her and then she said she felt better for that day. So now every day I see her we talk and laugh and enjoy each other for just that little time before she goes in for her treatment. I look forward to it every day. That will be the one thing I miss is talking to everyone and seeing how they are doing. She lives alone and does not like where she lives. But I think it's more the alone part then anything. Sweet old lady. For some reason I get along alot better with peolple older then myself. I love to hear there stories of how things use to be way back when.
I had a close frind growing up my own age but she really was'nt what she put herself out to be. When we started dateing she would hit on my boyfriends. I never knew it untill on day she had told me "you know if I wanted him I could get him" well needless to say I am no longer friend with her. I do miss the talks and being able to share my throughts and things. Its hard to find someone that you can really trust.
I was laied off from work last April of 11 years. But I was albe to pick up a job working as a PCA (personal care assistant). I became very good friends with this one lady Theola. She is 88 and what a ticket. When I go for treatments I sometimes stop at her home and we go out to dinner and then I take her shopping to get her out of her house for just a littly while. I know what its like to go stir crazy...I am there!!! I will not get her back as a client when I return to work cause she has switched companys. Its too bad but we still have our friendship. She calles me all the time to see how I am doing and make sure I am doing what I am suspose too. I thank God every day for her. When she calls me or I her we talk for hours and she catches me up on everything that is going on in her life and I let her know whats happening in mine. Its like I have known her for many years. And to beat all her Birthday is just a few days before mine is. So this year we went out and celbrated together.
Well I will let you all go for now and you all take care. Godd bless and hugs to you all.