Hi all, well ,my onco nurse called me and said that we are going to stay on the Taxol, which is fine by me , as it worked so well before. But says the Herceptin is out for now as it did not seem to be working, on the scan there are a couple of small deposits on my liver, that may have been there before, but not noticeable on a larger scan, but are noticeable now on the smaller scan. But what I am wondering now is, what if the Taxol does not get rid of the rest, then what?
It seems to be a rapidly growing cancer. And of course that is from being Her2/neu positive. An overexpression of that gene means a quicker growing cancer. oh yaaa for me. He mentioned Zolodex, but I can not find anything on it, the only thing I come up with is for use in prostate cancer, and some research into use in mets breast. Very frustrating this whole deal. Of course yesterday my boys stressed me out, today I am pms'ing, and my boob is hard and sore as usual around this time, and I am depressed from the chemo as usual, so all in all, I think I am ready for a really good breakdown.
I am trying so hard not to think about it, I want to talk to the base chaplain, maybe he can help.
On a lighter note, my nine year old told me at supper today that he is "getting pee-pee hairs", well I almost fell off the chair. He has been wearing deoderant for almost six months now because he stinks!!!! Phew, after a day of being outside and then standing next to him is enough to knock you on the floor!!
Well, enough for now, I am taking Pams advice and starting a book on this whole thing, I think it will be therapeutic for me and then my family will have something solid to look back on after I am gone.
Well, enough rambling on. You ladies take care and know that you all are in my heart as the best thing that ever happened to me!!
Without all of you, I probably would have gone over the deep end by now, Lord knows I was headed that way when I first found you.
Hugs from Tiger