Mar 03, 2001 - 2:27 pm
Okay ladies....please tell me I'm not the only nutty person out there....this is about my attempt to "balance" while wearing clothes. My mastectomy was 12/00 and I was so dumb...I thought the week I came home from the hospital I'd put on a bra and stuffed it with socks....which I did do but it was too painful and I realized that I didn't need to do that. Due to lupus I have been "draining" for weeks since surgery....every three days I ask my surgeon..."Now can I get fitted for my prosthesis?"...and he always says "not yet..you have to heal first." So I did go to the cancer society and got a "free boob" which was a cloth oval pocket filled with batting. The ladies there were great and I appreciated their help. However, I have always had "low" breasts and this new one kept going "higher and higher" til I expected to get hit in the eye with it and I looked worse than without one....so I discussed my problem with a girlfriend via a long distance phone call and told her I was trying to create a temporary boob and was having trouble figuring out how to weigh the boob down without heaviness....she told me she had seen some kids' toys in a local store that might work...they were gel filled "jigglers" and had the consistence of a water balloon. I received her emergency box of jigglers in the mail....two large and two small...bright colored, some filled with sparkles and some with snowflakes that float around in the gel...quite colorful! I messed with them and am happy to report that we have solved the problem....my temporary boob is great....realistic. I wrapped the jiggler in cotton batting and pinned it into the cloth pocket in my bra....I must confess that one morning while rushing to work I did "spring a leak" but I had replacements so that was okay. Anyway, until I can be fitted for the good one that my insurance company will spring for...I am walking around "jiggling"....I realize this could present interesting questions were I to be in an accident....but that's okay. My husband will attest to the fact that it is also fun to play with....after you remove it of course! I have scoured the web looking at the different breast prosthesis....I'd be interested in hearing what you ladies have found that are realistic looking yet comfortable. Reconstruction is not an option due to my lupus.....I don't want to look sexy...just "balanced" and not draw attention to myself. I was surprised by how concave the chest looks without a breast. I did go through a "grieving period" when I knew I was going to lose my breast. My husband found me in tears one day and I asked him what would happen to my breast after they removed it....it upset me that they'd dump it in the garbage, etc...crazy idea...I realize they biopsy them...but I had three weeks waiting til surgery and it was a long four weeks....so many thoughts go through your mind...as you all know. Yikes...here I am rambling again...apologies! Take care and God bless!