Feb 27, 2001 - 4:06 pm
Just wanted some encouragement on this matter. I've tried to stay upbeat, but now that my hair is starting to fall out, I guess the reality is setting in. Why is hair loss such a big hurdle to jump? I have done all the preliminary steps (even joked about it!!), but now that it is really happening, I am feeling a bit blue. I got some hats and two wigs from the local ACS office. My 15 year old daughter even helped my hairdresser with her opinions on the styling of the wigs and helped me pick out a wide brimmed hat to wear to church.
Maybe it is getting to me because I feel so tired. It's been a busy few days trying to get some things done in preparation for my second daughter's 15th birthday (yesterday). Now, I have to get ready for my mother and sister to arrive this weekend. I am looking forward to seeing them (haven't seen my mom for over a year and my sister for several months--before this all started), but also a little apprehensive. I'm a control freak and having them here and doing things for me......
What's ahead? I have an appointment with my GYN on Friday to have a check-up and get a mammogram order for the other breast. One more visit!!! I also have to deal with having my 42nd b-day on Saturday. We are to have our baby dedicated at church on Sunday. My husband has to go out of town on business Monday for a few days. AND, provided that my blood counts are ok, I will have my second chemo (A/C) on Tuesday. Needless to say, I am glad that my mother and sister will be here for that part of this mess.
I appreciated reading the suggestions given about keeping a notebook with information. I have been trying to go back and remember what has happened each day since my first surgery. It helps to keep it written down!! I also decided after having my blood draw yesterday that I would insist that I be called with the results each time so I can keep track of what the counts are as compared to how I feel. Up to now, they have said that they would only call me if the counts were too low. I decided yesterday that I wanted to know regardless.
Anyway, I have rambled on long enough. I guess it's time to go. I guess that I am just having a blue day--matches the gloomy, rainy weather we are having. Any uplifting thoughts would be appreciated.
P.S. Anyone have a suggestion on how us Wendys can distinguish ourselves for your benefit? I'm just a "desert rat"!! :-)