cher in again.
i am worrying about the dumbest things this morning.
actually the bigggest worry is not the cancer but that someone I confided let the information slip to
my mother's entire family. Since my mothers death 17 years ago I gradually distanced myself
from them since extended contact with any of them caused havoc in my mental health..
Maybe it is just worry over nothin' cause I am a much stronger woman than I was the last time
that I had any contact with them.
But it worries me that just having someone let them know is bothering me so much.
I have been fighting a cold for 3 days now. It has to get better before chemo. Only 8 more days to
I have read everyones advice to everyone else and I plan to be well ready.
Plenty of bulk in my diet this week, picking up stool softener in case I need it cause the nearest
pharmacy is 30 miles away on twisty mountain roads. Get ice chips in a cup to take to suck on.
(If my onco team doesn't already know that one I'll share it with them.)
I am still much too fat but hopefully I won't gain too much on chemo.
Why is it the thin, svelte ones worry about losing weight on it and we chubbies just gain more.
Actually writing this has helped the worrying. But any suggestions will be gratefully accepted.
I have prayed so much about this, but these people are just toxic to me.
Hope everyone is in good spirits this new year.
hugs and prayers,cher