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  • Alexis F
    Alexis F Member Posts: 3,598
    Ritzy said:

    Adra, we all put ourselves

    Adra, we all put ourselves through so much, physically and mentally, that it's a wonder that we can still function.  Hearing those 3 words, going through surgery's, chemo, rads, hormone therapy and all of the tests year after year, it does take a toll on us.  We just have to think positive, enjoy each and every day and stay on top of our health.  Life is meant to be lived, not meant to live in fear of cancer. 

    Take care,

    Sue :)

    It's really sad to see how

    It's really sad to see how many of us feel this way, but I guess comforting in another way, to know that so many pink sisters do feel the same way, if that makes sense. 

    Lex

  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    peanutcat said:

    Stuff away

    jnl,

    I keep my stuff in the top of my closet because I feel the same way you do. I don't want to be  jinxed. With me it is always in the back of my mind it will come back because there is so much of all kinds in my family. I keep UPBEAT tho

     

     

    Well WHEW!  I knew I wasn't

    Well WHEW!  I knew I wasn't strange.  lol  Thanks for reassuring me of that!  I almost drove myself nuts thinking I should put it all away, but, was just too afraid too.  So for now, it will remain where it is and I can relax about it. 

    Thank you sweet sisters for helping me with this.  I was really struggling with it, even though I know so many of you have so many more important issues now.  This was important to me and you are all the best!

    I love all of you,

    Leeza

  • June Bugs
    June Bugs Member Posts: 167
    jnl said:

    Well WHEW!  I knew I wasn't

    Well WHEW!  I knew I wasn't strange.  lol  Thanks for reassuring me of that!  I almost drove myself nuts thinking I should put it all away, but, was just too afraid too.  So for now, it will remain where it is and I can relax about it. 

    Thank you sweet sisters for helping me with this.  I was really struggling with it, even though I know so many of you have so many more important issues now.  This was important to me and you are all the best!

    I love all of you,

    Leeza

    I bet it feels good to come

    I bet it feels good to come to your decision.  It sounds like it isn't in the way or bothering anyone, so your choice to leave it there is the best for you, at least for now.

    June

  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
    Lynne P said:

    What we hang onto, whether it

    What we hang onto, whether it is everything or nothing is fine.  I keep all of my test results as I always want a record of everything.  I also have all of the cards, letters, notes and gifts that everyone sent to me and still do.  It makes me feel good knowing how many people cared and were concerned for what I went through. 

    Good luck in your choice,

    Lynne

    Leeza, I still have all of my

    Leeza, I still have all of my stuff too and will hang onto it as I feel exactly the same way.  No crying, your're normal.  hehe

  • SIROD
    SIROD Member Posts: 2,194 Member
    jnl said:

    If I do throw it out, I

    If I do throw it out, I probably wouldn't miss it either Doris.  Darn cancer!!!  Look at what it does to us! 

    Thanks, Leeza

    One bout...but almost 19 years of paperwork....

    Some of the postings made me smile.  It is ok when you only have one bout with breast cancer to keep it.  Just imagine the boxes I would have if I kept all the paper work, scans, blood tests, doctors notes, cards and etc for almost 19 years of living with active breast cancer.

    I would need to rent one of those storage lockers.  I do think after a while one just throws most of it away.  

    I do keep what is important for me to have.  I have scanned most of my recent scan's and the oncologist notes on to my computer as PDF files, so I don't have to search through the paper file if I want to know something.  I keep a backup of it.  

    I recorded my blood tests since 2007 on a spreadsheet.  Easy enough to plug in the numbers after you receive a copy.  This way I know how to compare the blood values - at a glance.

    Good luck to all,

    Doris 

  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991

    Leeza, I don't think you are

    Leeza, I don't think you are strange at all.  When I was diagnosed, I was working on an enormous cross stitch and was about 75% done.  I kept having this silly superstitious feeling that, if I finished the project, I would die.  Completely crazy!

    But I talked to my daughter about it at some point.  She asked why I had never finished it.  She understood and said, "Never finish it Mom."

    I know it is crazy but feelings are feelings.  Do what is right for you!

    The time just isn't right

    The time just isn't right now, and, it may never be.  Nothing wrong with that as you can tell from all of us that are the same way. 

    Hugs, Angie

  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    Angie2U said:

    The time just isn't right

    The time just isn't right now, and, it may never be.  Nothing wrong with that as you can tell from all of us that are the same way. 

    Hugs, Angie

    Mine may be in the closet

    Mine may be in the closet Leeza, but knowing I still have it, still gives me that "safe" feeling.  Very glad you're feeling better and are keeping everything. 

    Sue :)

  • DianeBC
    DianeBC Member Posts: 3,881 Member
    Noel said:

    Leeza, I still have all of my

    Leeza, I still have all of my stuff too and will hang onto it as I feel exactly the same way.  No crying, your're normal.  hehe

    Nothing crazy about it.  I am

    Nothing crazy about it.  I am the same.  I bet if they will admit it, most are Leeza.

     

  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    :-)

    Sounds pretty normal to me!  I am 6 years out from my last episode and I keep all my medical stuff at the ready.  Now that said it took me two years to donate my wigs and hats to someone in need, I just could not take that step.  I will tell you that once I did it was actually nice not to have them where I could see them often and be reminded, it was kind of freeing.  Do it when you are ready.

     

    Hugs,

     

    RE

  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    RE said:

    :-)

    Sounds pretty normal to me!  I am 6 years out from my last episode and I keep all my medical stuff at the ready.  Now that said it took me two years to donate my wigs and hats to someone in need, I just could not take that step.  I will tell you that once I did it was actually nice not to have them where I could see them often and be reminded, it was kind of freeing.  Do it when you are ready.

     

    Hugs,

     

    RE

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh of relief that I am really normal.  lol

    Leeza

  • pegalina
    pegalina Member Posts: 42

    I just hit  5 yrs-The only

    I just hit  5 yrs-The only thing i keep out is my little framed radiation certicate. IT is not very big, no one in the family notices it..but on occassion i just pick it up-(that is the ONLY exact date I remember) JUNE 28-2008 was my last day!

     

    We all handle things differently-I wish you luck

     

    Denise

    my wig

    Hi, I just hit 5yrs. and I have my wig in a box with white paper around it..lol..the thing is..5 yrs. ago my husbands ins. said I'm only allowed 1 wig per lifetime..so I bought the best wig out there..lol..its just so funny now..but you all know..we dont know if it will come back..I'm very positive..no matter what..I got my wig..lol!!!!

  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
    jnl said:

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh of relief that I am really normal.  lol

    Leeza

    I keep all of my stuff in a

    I keep all of my stuff in a box too in our closet.  I have the same feeling, that if I throw it out, I might be jinxing myself too.  lol  Guess we all have a lot more in commen than we realized. 

    Hugs, Debby

  • Lynne P
    Lynne P Member Posts: 165
    pegalina said:

    my wig

    Hi, I just hit 5yrs. and I have my wig in a box with white paper around it..lol..the thing is..5 yrs. ago my husbands ins. said I'm only allowed 1 wig per lifetime..so I bought the best wig out there..lol..its just so funny now..but you all know..we dont know if it will come back..I'm very positive..no matter what..I got my wig..lol!!!!

    We have to stay positive as I

    We have to stay positive as I think that's a huge part in our general all around health, mentally and physically.  Do what you love to do, enjoy every day and cherish your loved ones.

    Lynne

  • Alexis F
    Alexis F Member Posts: 3,598
    jnl said:

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh

    Thanks Re!  Sounding a sigh of relief that I am really normal.  lol

    Leeza

    Leeza, from reading all of

    Leeza, from reading all of your responses, it is obvious now that you are NORMAL!  lol  You breathe that sigh of relief and hang on to whatever you want.

    Hugs, Lex

  • Pink Rose
    Pink Rose Member Posts: 493
    TraciInLA said:

    My story is sort of the reverse of yours

    Leeza,

    Yes, you are strange...but we're all strange too, so we love you! Kiss

    About 10 months out of treatment, I moved, so I carefully boxed up all of my hats, scarves, ACS brochures, and other mementos from my treatment, labelled it "Cancer Resources," and let the movers put it in the garage with my other storage boxes.  That was 2 1/2 years ago.  

    One of my health goals right now is to be more diligent about protecting my skin from the sun, especially my face, so I've bought hats to wear when I go walking.  I keep thinking that a couple of the hats I wore during chemo looked good on me, I should get them out of that box and wear them...

    ...but I can't open that box.  I see it when I'm out in the garage, but I can't go near it.  It's almost like I feel it's Pandora's box -- if I open that box, the cancer will come back.  If I keep it taped shut, the cancer will stay in there.

    Yes, it's crazy...but cancer makes us crazy!

    Traci

     

    I tend to agree with your

    I tend to agree with your thought Traci that cancer makes us crazy.  Undecided

  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
    Alexis F said:

    It's really sad to see how

    It's really sad to see how many of us feel this way, but I guess comforting in another way, to know that so many pink sisters do feel the same way, if that makes sense. 

    Lex

    Very understandable, as I

    Very understandable, as I have kept everything too for the same fear, that if I throw it out, the cancer might come back.  I don't look at it anymore.  I just put new test results with it is all anymore. 

    Jan