I need uplifting or something

sangora
sangora Member Posts: 213
The last couple of weeks have been tough with the pneumonia and being in the hospital. I never do well in the hospital. Anyway, for the past three days I have been in a great deal of pain. Taking the pain meds hasn't done much and the doc has been working with some other options. I think the pain may be better today.The point of this rambling is that my frame of mind is not good. My normally positive attitude is on vacation and I am really on a bummer. Anyway since I don't have a care giver to abuse and fuss with, I need for this group to send me some positive karma. I have been invited to go to church Easter with friends and though I feel awful, I am determined to go. Easter has always been important to me and since this could be my last one, I need to go. Pray for enough energy to get there. Sam Stage IV
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  • birdiequeen
    birdiequeen Member Posts: 319
    Hang in there Sam the new
    Hang in there Sam the new season will help in lifting sprits. I do hope you can make Easter service! We are here for you.

    Hugs
    Lee Ann
  • Bobs1wife
    Bobs1wife Member Posts: 150
    Sam, Go to church on Easter!
    Sam, this is a very personal message straight to you. Go, as fast as you can to church on Easter. Take note of the pretty attire, the lilies, and then open your heart and mind to hear the words of the Easter service, the reserection is for you Sam, and for all of us. You are graciously offered a "free gift" from God of eternal life through His son, Jesus. The choice to accept it is ours alone, one, on one. "The Plan" for our life if a simple one. Repent of our sins, accept Jesus as our Saviour, and receive God's love and eternal life. All our life through, whatever we did, there was still just the one Plan. The glory of the Easter message is there for you. This is my personal opinion, but a strong one. My husband celebrates the reserection in Heaven this year for the first time. It is just 5 weeks since his passing. My grieving here continues, but my PEACE is in knowing he is healed, whole, and happy, with no more pain, or tears. Blessed Easter you you all! Linda
  • bingbing2009
    bingbing2009 Member Posts: 177
    You got it, Sam!
    Sam,

    I usually don't respond to very many posts here, but I wanted you to know that I'm sending all the positive energy possible your way. I've kept up with you, and rooted for you behind the scenes. Now it's time to let you know what an inspiration you are. I truly admire your attitude and your spunk and your strength. You have shared so much with so many here. Thank you for everything--this site is much better because of people like you!

    Sending you lots of prayers, strength, energy and hugs!

    Melinda
  • stephikindred
    stephikindred Member Posts: 140
    Pain, pain go away!
    I think if you can get that pain under control it will also help your frame of mind. It's hard to be happy when you are hurting. Isn't there something the docs can do to nip this in the bud? I am praying for your pain to ease, your mood be light, and your heart to be filled with light and love. This is a beautiful season. Shine with the sun, Sam!
  • JimboC
    JimboC Member Posts: 264
    Sam,
    I hate to see you

    Sam,

    I hate to see you bummed out. When I was stage III you Stage IVs were my inspiration. I fought like I did out of respect for you. I figured any less and I wasn't honoring you all properly. Now that I am a Stage IVb myself, I see we have a unique battle. I respect you being down and understand that you earned that right. I have beaten up my amazing wife and caregiver to the point of tears and walk away thoroughly ashamed of myself. This is followed by an apology of course. I don't want to know what to do to pick you up other than to pray for you which I gladly do anyway. If talking would help, I'd be glad to talk to you. I'm pretty new at the stage ivb thing but I've taken a lot of wisdom from your posts and would be happy to talk. Just PM me your phone number and best time to call. I'll be saying a little prayer for you have this and throughout. Get to church for Easter Sunday and take care of yourself.

    JimboC
  • JReed
    JReed Member Posts: 428
    Peace to you Sam on this Good Friday
    Sam:

    I totally get your frame of mind - you just get sick of being sick. The weather has cooled off here in Michigan, but the sun is shining and that helps with the spirit and mind. Don likes to be outdoors and has a little bit but he gets cold pretty easily - he is still healing from the surgery.

    Don has been in the dumps a bit too lately, which is understandable as it is in your case also - but last night I picked up the phone and called Paul Adams and he talked with Don and by the time they finished their conversation, I could see that Don had a much better frame of mind. Just talking with someone who is going through the same stuff as you are really helps.

    Easter is probably the best religous holiday there is. It seems to bring everything to a full circle and gives you time to reflect on the total awesomeness of our God. To try to imagine Jesus actually walking among us - powerful stuff to meditate on for sure.

    I'm hoping that we can find our favorite Easter movies on television this weekend. It will be a very low key Easter for us and we're fine with that. Wish you were here to chill out with us - I am going to make some deviled eggs and put a little horseradish in them - I know Don can eat that for sure and maybe some ham salad.

    Sending you some positive mojo and some of our sunshine.

    Happy Easter Sam,
    Hugs,
    Judy & Don
  • Donna70
    Donna70 Member Posts: 852 Member
    JReed said:

    Peace to you Sam on this Good Friday
    Sam:

    I totally get your frame of mind - you just get sick of being sick. The weather has cooled off here in Michigan, but the sun is shining and that helps with the spirit and mind. Don likes to be outdoors and has a little bit but he gets cold pretty easily - he is still healing from the surgery.

    Don has been in the dumps a bit too lately, which is understandable as it is in your case also - but last night I picked up the phone and called Paul Adams and he talked with Don and by the time they finished their conversation, I could see that Don had a much better frame of mind. Just talking with someone who is going through the same stuff as you are really helps.

    Easter is probably the best religous holiday there is. It seems to bring everything to a full circle and gives you time to reflect on the total awesomeness of our God. To try to imagine Jesus actually walking among us - powerful stuff to meditate on for sure.

    I'm hoping that we can find our favorite Easter movies on television this weekend. It will be a very low key Easter for us and we're fine with that. Wish you were here to chill out with us - I am going to make some deviled eggs and put a little horseradish in them - I know Don can eat that for sure and maybe some ham salad.

    Sending you some positive mojo and some of our sunshine.

    Happy Easter Sam,
    Hugs,
    Judy & Don

    Sam I second these ideas
    Hi Sam,
    You have had a rough time, the hospital is never fun and usually the reason we are there never helps either. So listen to all of us with our positive energy telling you to get out there to Easter services. And as someone said if they can get your pain under control that would help your frame of mind. It is hard to be positive if you are under pain, how would you get comfortable and even rest to heal faster. Maybe you need Fentanyl patches, something to get rid of the persisting pain. My prayers and thoughts are with you, many hugs from Maryland.
    Donna70
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  • MGiorgi
    MGiorgi Member Posts: 1
    There is always hope
    Sam, I was diagnosed with esophagueal and gastric cancer stage IV on March 2011.
    After chimo, radiation and 3 awful surgeries I am cancer free since January.
    I spent several months at the hospital. I suffered a lot. I was always thinking about my son.
    He is 3 years old.
    Now I am recovering. I am working part-time. I enjoy every day. I don't think about the future.
    I just want to be happy today.
    It is okay to be down sometimes. This shall pass. There is always hope.
  • Ucsf_smile
    Ucsf_smile Member Posts: 79
    Sam,
    Hang in there, you have

    Sam,
    Hang in there, you have been so brave and courageous. Were they able to get you some new pain meds? Sending a hug your way!
  • Cindy Bear
    Cindy Bear Member Posts: 569
    Sam
    Hoping the Dr. is able to make you comfortable and find something to alleviate your pain. Hang in there. I so hope and pray that you are able to be with your friends on Easter, and have a beautiful, blessed day. I wish I had some uplifting words for you but I don't. Just want to send big cyber hugs your way.
    Cindy
  • paul61
    paul61 Member Posts: 1,391 Member
    Thinking of you and sending prayers your way
    Sam,

    Struggling with pain makes it hard to keep a positive perspective, and you certainly have been through a difficult time over the last few weeks. I hope your doctors can find a way to manage your pain more effectively. Sometimes you have to keep bugging them until they understand that you need something different. I hope you can make it to Easter Services, I know when I was recovering from surgery and going through chemotherapy, I would get up on some Sunday mornings and feel I just couldn't make it to church that day, but I found that if I moved slowly I could get there and once I got there and the service started I would invariably feel better.

    I hope you feel better over the next few days.


    Best Regards,

    Paul Adams
    McCormick, South Carolina

    DX 10/22/2009 T2N1M0 Stage IIB
    12/03/2009 Ivor Lewis
    2/8 through 6/14/2010 Adjuvant Chemo Cisplatin, Epirubicin, 5 FU
    Two year survivor

    Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance!
  • JaneO
    JaneO Member Posts: 40
    Sam
    You are not alone! There isn't anyone here that hasn't gone through the depression you are feeling. Easter is the perfect holiday. It gives us all hope. Take advantage of it, make yourself go. It may be just what you need to help you through this rough time. I have found this Easter means so much more than past ones. Jack was diagnosed in July Stage 4. We have to live each day to its fullest. I think you will enjoy going to church and experiencing it, especially if was always important to you in the past.
    Jane
  • cher76
    cher76 Member Posts: 292
    Sam, please know that we are
    Sam, please know that we are all praying for you! I have often marveled at how you have managed all this on your own. So anytime you need to rant at someone or something, know that we are here to listen and support you. As the others have said, uncontroled pain has a way of eating away positive thoughts and allows depression to creep in. It's hard to focus on being positive when all your energy is being used to deal with the pain. Please talk to your options for it. May you have a blessed Easter, and may the Lord grant you peace and strength in the days ahead!
    Cheryl
    Wife of Rickie, dx stage IV, Oct. 2010
    Mets to brain and bones
    Lost the battle Jan, 4,2012
  • Ginny_B
    Ginny_B Member Posts: 532
    Oh Sam, I'm so sorry you
    Oh Sam, I'm so sorry you feel so bad. I do hope your pain can be controlled. Maybe it's time for you to get some help so that more effective pain meds can be administered. Do go to Easter services. Easter is what life and death is all about! Go... He prepares your way. I will keep you in my prayers on Easter Sunday.
    Ginny
  • AngieD
    AngieD Member Posts: 493
    Ginny_B said:

    Oh Sam, I'm so sorry you
    Oh Sam, I'm so sorry you feel so bad. I do hope your pain can be controlled. Maybe it's time for you to get some help so that more effective pain meds can be administered. Do go to Easter services. Easter is what life and death is all about! Go... He prepares your way. I will keep you in my prayers on Easter Sunday.
    Ginny

    Sam, I'm definitely sending
    Sam, I'm definitely sending positive energy your way! You are in my thoughts and prayers each day and have been such an inspiration to me. As the others have said, I do hope the pain gets quickly controlled as that can certainly zap your energy and your attitude. And I especially hope you do go and enjoy the Easter services with your friends. Larry and I have found that making the effort to get out and about makes a world of difference in our physical and emotional sense of well-being. And Easter is so special. Hoping for a great day for you tomorrow and a good week to follow.

    Angie DX BC 1/12
    Wife of Larry DX Stage IV EC 6/11
  • TerryV
    TerryV Member Posts: 887
    Looks like the group has done their work
    Sam,

    I'm here to chime in. It looks like you've already got many "lifting you up" but one more set of hands lightens the worry load, right?

    I love the comments on Easter shared here. It truly IS about renewal, faith, and glory. Go to church with your friends and get some of that glory sprinkled on you. Renew your faith and perhaps in doing so, you will find your spirit renewed as well.

    Prayers for better days are coming your way! Hope tomorrow is good for you!

    Big {HUGS},

    Terry
  • ndmp
    ndmp Member Posts: 36
    TerryV said:

    Looks like the group has done their work
    Sam,

    I'm here to chime in. It looks like you've already got many "lifting you up" but one more set of hands lightens the worry load, right?

    I love the comments on Easter shared here. It truly IS about renewal, faith, and glory. Go to church with your friends and get some of that glory sprinkled on you. Renew your faith and perhaps in doing so, you will find your spirit renewed as well.

    Prayers for better days are coming your way! Hope tomorrow is good for you!

    Big {HUGS},

    Terry

    Sam You Can Do It!!!
    Sam,

    So many thoughts and prayers are coming your way!!! You have an amazing goal and I know you will be at church Easter morning. This is such a powerful time, Easter is full of MIRACLES, remember "ask and you shall receive"
    Terry is right let that Easter Glory rain down on you with renewed faith. Draw from His Glory your strength. Happy Blessed Easter to you
    Nicole
  • sangora
    sangora Member Posts: 213
    ndmp said:

    Sam You Can Do It!!!
    Sam,

    So many thoughts and prayers are coming your way!!! You have an amazing goal and I know you will be at church Easter morning. This is such a powerful time, Easter is full of MIRACLES, remember "ask and you shall receive"
    Terry is right let that Easter Glory rain down on you with renewed faith. Draw from His Glory your strength. Happy Blessed Easter to you
    Nicole

    So Supportive
    You all are so suppotive and I am thankful for all of you. I did get to Church on Easter. It was wonderful and ment so much for me to be there. Friday, my doctor increased the doseage of my pain med and so far it has WORKED. I have been pain free since friday afternoon.I am scheduled for a treatment on tuesday and as far as I know now it is a go. I am feeling better all round today and thank each of you for your supportive words. Sam Stage IV
  • paul61
    paul61 Member Posts: 1,391 Member
    sangora said:

    So Supportive
    You all are so suppotive and I am thankful for all of you. I did get to Church on Easter. It was wonderful and ment so much for me to be there. Friday, my doctor increased the doseage of my pain med and so far it has WORKED. I have been pain free since friday afternoon.I am scheduled for a treatment on tuesday and as far as I know now it is a go. I am feeling better all round today and thank each of you for your supportive words. Sam Stage IV

    Great to hear that things went well
    Sam,

    I am so glad that you made it to church. I was thinking about you yesterday and hoping that you would be able to get there. Glad to hear the pain medication is working. Hang in there!!!


    Best Regards,

    Paul Adams
    McCormick, South Carolina

    DX 10/22/2009 T2N1M0 Stage IIB
    12/03/2009 Ivor Lewis
    2/8 through 6/14/2010 Adjuvant Chemo Cisplatin, Epirubicin, 5 FU
    Two year survivor

    Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance!