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how do you create intimacy

I am trying so hard to live a somewhat normal life with my husband with a trach with him in so much pain all the time. I try to rub his back or his legs and feet and he seems to resist every attempt of affection towards him. I have no idea what role to play anymore. I try to be a caregiver and he rejects me and says he can do everything himself. I try to be loving and he rejects my love I hug him he says it hurts to touch him. I am so lost in this relationship I get so much resentment projected at me for everything.

thedisgustingcancer's picture

I am screaming why???? We were so happy Cancer screwed our happiness

I am living in a nightmare the worst one of all, I had so much ahead of us so much future so much hope. But its all gone I wonder when it will return. 

precancerous lesions

I have had anal cancer with 28x radiation tmt along with 2/ 96 hour chemo tmts. which ended in June 2016. I went to have my port removed but learned i have precancerous lesions they want to remove. Has anyone had this procedure to let me know what to expect?




I know why I write this.  I don't know why anyone reads this. It's rambling, disorganized, unstructured, probably most of which no one else can relate to.  I call them "chapters" but I think that they really are not.  I just end and begin another one when one seems to need ending. But for me the writing is helpful and, although I don't like the word- therapeutic.

My Journey

My journey began November 4,2014

The previous week I had a biopsy on what I thought was a rash. The results came back as Malignant Melanoma. 

At the time, I worked for a dermatologist ( Gods Grace no doubt) so by the end of the day, I was undergoing the surgical procedure to remove the spot that I was told was about the size of a pencil eraser. It was on my back and I never even saw it. 

I was immediately referred to an Oncologis. I wanted to wait until after Thanksgiving but was urged not to wait. 

Metastatic Melanoma Stage IV - support


My husband was diagnosed with stage III melanoma in September 2016. He was in a trial for IPI but it was unsuccessful for him.  The cancer has advanced to stage IV and has metastisized in his lungs and chest lumph nodes.   He is currently in a clinicial trial at Providence Hospital in Portland Oregon for IL2 + Radiation.

I am looking to connect with anyone that has experience with stage IV melanoma and IL2 or any other treatments.  My network is small and I looking to expand my network to connect with others to gain knowledge and support.   

Stage 4 NSLC

hello, is there anyone can suggest me where I could get an advance tratment for my father in US? I know that they have so many drugs for chemotherapy which is in my country dont. My father has been diagnosed with a non small lung cancer stage 4, 2 yrs ago and he's been in chemotherapy since. Doctor has tested so many drugs and nothing left. Please if theres someone out there know doctors or hsopital I can visit. Please...

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My cancer story Sept 8 2015




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